It's been such a short week! A lot has happened though. I find myself attracted two guys both of whom are in my english class. Really smart on my part huh? So yeah I'm talking to my best friend, Shayla Fay (I'll call her Shay from here on out), and she tells me flirt with them both. Well okay but I think that they'll both notice that and I'm not into hurting people (I know that's not what you meant Shay) I just don't know who I like more they're both nice.M I feel comfortable with to a certain extent he has a good sense of humor, but O kinda challenges me, he'd argue and that's great. Oh and they both have good personalities and are hot.I want to get to know them more so I can find out if it's more than just attraction and if they like me, but there's that word THEY again. So how do I so this without hurting either or entirely embarasing myself? This all comes from someone who hasn't been attracted to anyone in like a two years, beyond thinking someone was cute(mostly Collin Farrel) and has dated but not anything regular. Go figure right.

I'm happy today. All the way through school I wanted to curl up and go back to sleep, but since my best firend and I went and worked out though I've been yeah! I feel good. Well we hit deadline today in yearbook and everything went without a hitch which is a first this year. I'm reading this great book series called Sweep by Cate Tiernan. I totally recomend it. Oh I had this wierd dream yesterday. Me and a bunch of my friends were swimming in the middle of a grassy noll, and then out of nowhere this other guy I know appeared in his car. And then Windy grabbed him out of the car and started rolling him in the grass and tickling him. It was just so random. The thing that I find weird is that they say every dream is your subconscious trying to tell you something, and I've been trying to figure out what that dream meant. Well toodles.

I suprisingly had a great time tonight. I know it's bad, but it takes a lot for me to forgive someone. About a year ago I ended a friendship with someone close to me because they turned into a person I really didn't want to be around any more. Well for the last eight months or so that person has been trying to apologise, and I forgave them, but I couldn't get past it. Well finally I gave that person a chance tonight, and I can honestly say that they're a decent person. I'm supprised by how much of a weight that's lifted off of me. I bowled a 87. I know I know not very good, but it was the first time in like 6 years, and I had fun. After that we just kind of hung out at the Windy's. When I was trying to find my way back to 35 I got turned around bad. When I was flipping my car around I stopped for this guy running across the street, and he flashed me a great smile. One of those smiles that you can't help but smile back to. Well any way I just got home and thought I'd throw fingers to keyboard. For any readers out there into twists on reality books try Marianne Curley's The Guardians of Time trilogy. It may or may not be your thing, but I enjoyed it. Adios.